I'm severly frustrated. First, all day yesterday YouTube was fucking with comments, and since comments have become like crack for me, I was in serious withdrawal. Also, if any of you care, my back went out.
I was on the subway on my way to work. Sitting and reading like every day. I shifted position when suddenly this spasm of pain went up my back. First I was like wtf? Then it didn't stop. And it was the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. I then started to get nauseous from the pain. That's never happened to me. I think I saw a few people staring and me and I remember thinking to myself: "Oh, great. I'm going to puke on the train, stink up the whole place, they're going to have to stop the train at the next stop and make everyone get off and block the station until the ambulance comes and takes me away." And all I could think about was how I don't have health insurance and can't afford to go to a hospital. But I could not move! Finally, things started to get fuzzy for me and I tipped over onto the bench. Fortunately nobody was next to me. Gotta love New York. Everyone has seen everything, so I could tell people were aware that something was wrong with me, but they mostly tried not to look, except I half-noticed a woman a ways down the subway care perched on the edge of her seat like an alert animal, staring at me. And that was the last thing I saw. I think I passed out for only a few minutes. Then we came to a stop and a bunch of people came on the train. I try to get up, but I couldn't. But after another thirty seconds I forced myself to sit, against the pain.
Long story short, I managed to eventually get home and spent the rest of the day in bed. I'm just glad I have a laptop to keep me entertained (despite YouTUbe frustrating the hell out of me with the commenting problems), because I literally could not get up even to go to the bathroom or I would pass out from pain. I took about 5 painkillers and eventually I was able to get up to pee, but that was it. Today I'm doing slightly better, but will probably spend most of the day in bed (and on YouTube!).
Thanks for listening to my bitching. Oh, I don't know what the problem is and can't afford a doctor right now, so wish me well. I'm hoping it was just some muscle thing that will get better soon. It better!
